To be a slave.
"Like you I have pretended to be nothing. To bleed and suffer and be silent. To exist for work and yet not to exist at all. To live without love or recognition. All this I did, not choosing to do so, but because I had no choice and found that the force of life in me was stronger then the desire for death. It is that which makes a slave. That choice, when all other choices are denied, to carry on." - 'Gat' from The Book of D'ni.